Thursday, January 3, 2013

I'm hiding my scale

My weigh-in Wednesday post is a bit late, but it has been a rough week for me weight wise. I should have known it was going to be bad when Aunt Flo made her appearance on Sunday (a whole week early, I might add). Then when the scale read 150 on Monday morning, I kind of fell apart. I started carb loading like a fat kid at a birthday party. Sorry Mel and Meredith, total fail on the no carbs for a week challenge.

Needless to say, I did not win my Dietbet challenge. I am actually rather bummed about that because I hate losing money and because I really wanted to achieve that goal. However, this past week has just stressed me out to no end and I realized that I don't want to be a slave to the number on the scale anymore.

When I was thinking about my New Year's resolutions or goals, not one of them was to lose weight. Sure, I would love to take off this last 15-20 lbs, but I'm not going to make that a specific goal. This year I want to focus more on getting stronger, building up my muscles and seeing how far I can push myself. I would love to join Crossfit, but it isn't financially feasible right now, so I'll improvise. There are so many videos available on youtube, plus I always have Jillian to kick my ass. I just read this blog this morning and it completely summed up how I have been feeling. Courtney also posted this on Instagram, but I'm stealing it.

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I started my half marathon training this week and I have my first 4 miler coming up on Sunday. I can't wait to complete it. I don't have a half marathon scheduled to run in as of yet, although there are going to be a bunch of awesome women at the St. Louis Marathon, so I'm considering that. I really just want to prove to myself that I can do it. The 13.1 sticker would be nice on the back of my car, though.

I'm still at 150 this morning and I need to take my monthly measurements, but I feel strangely okay with this. It isn't where I want to be ultimately, but it will be nice to not worry about it for a while. I need to hide my scale for a while so I stop stepping on it every morning. I can still rock #operationredbikini at 150 when it is all muscle, right?

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